Well, I just don't have much to say these days. I have wanted to blog lately about all the wonderful things that God is so graciously teaching me, but I find myself feeling like my conversations are very personal. Just for me! Things that only I can meditate on because the words He gives me are dealing with my heart and soul. I'm not sure I ever remember a season quite like this one.
The truth is when I look back on this year of my life I consider it one of the toughest seasons in my adult life. Not because of any traumatic issue, or major life change (other than Alice and she is an adjustment for sure) I have gone through. Just a tough year. Always something or somebody needing my attention and thought. Sam said something to me the other day though that has turned my complaining and frustration completely around. He reminded me of the growth we have experienced this year. And as most people know you grow through tough times much more than you do easy times. So I guess all this pain, is just a growing pain. And for that I am truley grateful! Makes it all seem much more worth it.
So as I approach Thankgiving I am reminded of so many things I am thankful for. First of all that I am saved! Saved from what I deserve and given something I did absolutely nothing to obtain. A promise that encourages me on the lowest of low days! Jesus! Yes, I am so thankful for Jesus! I am thankful that God generously gave me a husband who can turn my gloom and doom attitude around with his kind words of truth and encouragement. I am thankful for 2 little silly girls who I am completely humbled to have the job of teaching them about WHO really matters in life more than the "what" that so many people are chasing. To tell them how much our God truly loves and adores them and would seriously do...no wait...has already done for them. Thankful too, that there is grace to cover all the times I screw that one up. And right now I am thankful for a season of God teaching me and making me hungry for HIM. Hungry in a way that I can't seem to get enough and somehow when I'm with HIM I can understand if only a small bit, what He wants me to hear. It is only by HIS grace that HIS word can teach my stubborn, wicked heart, and for that I am amazed.
So, I haven't said much lately. But the truth is I am even more captivated by HIS love and treasure. There are good days and bad days...but He is the same. Always good, always patient, always jealous for my affection.
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